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Letter to Mom & Dad (2017 12 28)

28/12/2017

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28 December 2017 

Mom & Dad, 

As of this year, I have been a father five times over.  What the heck!  The longer I have been a parent, the harder and deeper I have thought about parenthood.  It has not only shaped my view of my own life and the weight of my thoughts, words, and actions, but it has also shaped my view of God as my Heavenly Father, and my view of you as my parents.  My being a parent combined with my own kids getting older has caused me this past year to reflect more on my own childhood and upbringing, and of course of both of you.  I have set certain parental goals for myself and, after realizing just how hard they are to navigate, I wanted to share with you how great both of you did in your roles as parents.  I love you and I know that I am beyond blessed that the Lord gave me to you to raise.  

Thank you for showing me Jesus and letting Him shape my view of the world. 

The older I get the more I see the power of Jesus in saying “let the little children come to me”, because the odds of cynical, hardened adults allowing the radical transformation of the Holy Spirit to take place is small.  I meet so many people who, due to calloused upbringing by parents who were themselves hardened and cynical, have a very depressing and hopeless view of the world.  They seem to be almost animalistic and cold-blooded in their “dog-eat-dog” treatment of others.  I have always fought hard to resist becoming an uncaring person, and I attribute that to Jesus and Him working in you as my parents to let my view of people and the world be shaped by His Holy Spirit. 

When we were in Washington DC recently, Lanae saw a mom and baby sitting outside the subway asking for money.  She asked if we could please give her some money to help her, and I went with her to talk to her and give her $20.  Her compassion was moving to me, and I was immediately taken back to a time when I did the same thing with you, mom, for a pitiful looking woman on some street in Mexico.  You probably don’t even remember it, but her image is forever seared into my mind.  I remember other times, dad, when you would willingly purchase food for hungry people or drive a church van to pick up kids who many would have said “wouldn’t change” or were coming “for the wrong reasons”.   

So many people, many of whom fill up church pews, respond with cynicism and bitterness to people and consciously or unconsciously pass such views of humanity on to their children.  But, you showed me Jesus in dealing compassionately with people, and you did in powerful ways.  You are both deeply caring people who, in different ways and instances, showed me Jesus and let me what it looks like to walk with Him.  I pray that the Lord will help me do the same for my kids. 

Thank you for seamlessly transitioning from parent to friend. 

I see so many people who either want to be their kids friend too early or be their parent for too long.  It is easy to mock them and point out their flaws, but it sure is hard to know when to make that transition yourself.  Obviously, none of my kids are at the stage where I am their friend, but I pray that when I reach that stage I will transition as seamlessly as you did. 

In the “Christian Academy” circles I tend to run in, the struggle for most is knowing when to let their kid go and recognize that they are a child no more.  They try to parent too long, and their kid responds by pushing them away or rebelling against them or the church or a number of things.  The fear of “messing up” as a parent, is real for me, and I will rely heavily on the wisdom and guidance of the Holy Spirit as my kids – and especially all these girls – hit their teenage years.  I know that you must have lost sleep, sweat, and brain cells on raising kids and navigating when and how to make that transition, but you did it so well.  You really did.  I know it probably felt clunky and awkward to you, but I just wants to tell you how amazing you both did at being first a parent, and now a best friend. 

Thank you for stability that I didn’t even know I needed. 

I talk to parents often about their behavior making things “normative” for their kids: if you cuss, that becomes their normal; if you consume sex; that becomes their normal; if you lie, that becomes normal for them.  But, if you love, that becomes normal; if you pray, that becomes normal; if they know that you have their best interest at heart, that becomes normal. 

A couple of years ago, Lanae had her first experience of having a friend whose parents were getting divorced.  She had to start splitting tome with mom and dad, and both her mom and dad went into a tailspin of sorts after that.  For her, that will be normal. 

I think back on growing up, and I am so thankful that both of you provided me stability which built a healthy and solid foundation for the rest of my life.  Some kids that grow up in broken homes find that stability, but they really have to fight for it much of the time; mine was just there because I knew that I had two parents who loved each other and who loved me.  But for the grace of God and you being my parents, I could have been completely screwed up, making a mess of myself, and on the fast track to death and destruction.  Thank you. 

Thank you for building resilience in me. 

The older I get, the more important resilience becomes to me.  Circumstances happen that suck, unforeseen events occur which can be life-altering, and people can completely turn their back on you.  And yet, one of the elements that seem to separate people is the ability to deal with and keep moving, or getting knocked down and not being able to get back up. 

Romans 8, among other Scriptures, talks about Christ being with us and in us all the time, and that nothing on Earth being able to separate us from the love of God.  That in and of itself should build resilience in the Christian.  But, to see someone that you know, love and respect model that resilience and endure and maintain is a huge part of developing it for yourself. 

This comes out in little ways and big ways: sticking with a sport even when you don’t like it, getting back on the bus even when someone is being mean, or mowing one more yard even when it’s dinner time.  But, I have also been privileged to watch and observe resilience by watching you not want to move, but do it and do it well, or by getting a job done even when you didn’t feel like it, or keep going to a church when the Lord hadn’t released you yet.  I can remember, mom, going to church with you when I can imagine there is no way you wanted to go with your kids, and yet you did.  I can remember, dad, cutting grass with you after you had already worked all day.  I can also remember watching you interact with customers who were a pain in the butt, but you would be kind with them and do more than I thought you should have done.  Those little things teach monumental lessons, and I am so thankful for it and I love and respect the heck out of you both for it.  Thank you.  Last but not least:                                                                                                                           
Thank you for letting me grow into who Christ made me to be. 

I see so many people who seem to want to live vicariously through their kids.  It is selfish and does the kid absolutely no good.  They wanted to be a great ballplayer, so they try and make their kid a great ballplayer.  They want their kid to get into a great school and be a doctor or lawyer, so they push and push and push regardless of whether or not the kid has any passion or desire to pursue that path. 

Now, as a parent, I can see the difficulty in that!  There are certain attributes about kids that you want to change: this one is too emotional, this one is too serious, this one is anti-social, and so on.  I know that I started and quit more jobs than either of you were comfortable with in my teens and early twenties!  I know that I was a terrible, lazy student in school and got worse grades than I should have.  I know that getting engaged at 18 and married at 19 must have brought fear and trepidation into your soul…and yet, you let me grow and let Christ work in me without trying to kill my spirit or control who I became and how or when I became the person that He created me to be.  That seems like perhaps the single most difficult aspect of being a parent, and yet, looking back, you did it so well.  I got the privilege of watching you trust Jesus to work in me with a willingness to guide along the way.  Thank you. 

I know parenthood is an art and not a science, and that almost every parent worries that they are doing it wrong.  We remember our failures far more than we remember our successes.  But, this year, I wanted to say thank you and remind you of some of what I see as your greatest successes.  There are so many more things than I could include in here, but I just wanted you both to know how wonderful I think you are.  I don’t think you could have done a better job.  Merry Christmas.  I love you. 

- Justin 
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Letter to MAC Leadership (2017 12 10)

10/12/2017

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10 December 2017 

Gentlemen: 

I appreciate your prayers for my family as we experienced the birth of our daughter, Adeline Shea DuBose, this week.  While in the hospital, I had more time than my usual schedule permits to pray and think, and I felt led to share with you the burden of my heart as God has now called you to share in the leadership of our congregation. 

My heart aches and breaks for our church and her leadership.  I feel like Paul who, in II Corinthians 11:28, after telling of his hardships for the sake of the Gospel added, “Besides everything else, I face daily the pressure of my concern for the churches.”  This burden I have for our church has been increasing over this year, and I am afraid that the very conclusions I did not want to be true, and prayed and worked to change, continue to be true.  I will first address my concerns for our leadership before moving on to general concerns for our church.  Please hear these words as the cry from your weary, broken-hearted pastor and nothing more. 

On the part of some in leadership, there exists a desire to tear down rather than a desire to build up. 

Ephesians 4:3-6 gives a clear call to the Bride of Christ: “Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.  There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.”   

Despite this clear and unwavering call, and there are many others in Scripture like it, it would seem as though the efforts of some in our leadership, past and present, were toward disunity and dissolving the bond of peace based on their words and actions.   

While it has been aimed at me before, it has recently taken a different form.  In particular, this has lately been directed at our brother, Scott.  In Scott we have a brother who has devoted the last four or so years of his life to becoming a licensed worker with the Alliance, culminating in an oral interview with our District Superintendent, Dr. Mick Noel.  Following that, our elders confirmed his appointment as our Associate Pastor earlier this year.  To the glory of God, he agreed to voluntarily serve as our Discipleship Pastor in an effort to help us curb our gross and discreditable lack of discipleship – and what has been the reaction of some?  “Scott is not a pastor” or “Scott is not qualified to serve in leadership.”  This attitude is downright shameful, heartbreaking, and completely counter to the character of Christ.  Where is the “every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace” in such a spirit?  How backwards and spiritually darkened is it to tear down a brother - and seek to turn others against him - whose heart and efforts have been toward more fully and wholly serving Christ and His church?   

We must, as the leadership of the church – if we do nothing else – be united with Christ and one another.  If we are not, then Christ is working and will continue to work elsewhere while we sit and poorly build our own divided kingdoms here.  Consider this a call to unity or a call to leave, and I whole-heartedly include myself in that call.  We must go before Jesus and beg Him to unify our group, which perhaps means that it cannot include every person who is here or who we would like to serve next year and in the future.  Without such unity and peace, our church will continue to flounder and be fruitless, and the Holy Spirit of God will do His life-changing work elsewhere.  Furthermore, as the pastor, I cannot and will not tolerate such a divisive attitude in our leadership, for such is the work of our adversary. 

On the part of our congregation, there exists a general apathy and lack of passion for the mission of Christ. 

In our efforts to stir the hearts of people toward the mission of God, what has been the response?  Resistance.  Resistance to what, though, - the pastor and/or the elders?  Or is it certain methodologies, just the personal preference of one way of doing ministry over another?  I have wrestled with these questions, but am becoming convinced that it is something different altogether, and something larger and more spiritually oppressive and Holy Spirit quenching than resistance to a man and/or methods. 

I am persuaded, generally speaking, (and this is true of most churches as well, but this is our church) that our people are almost entirely void of passion for the mission of Christ.  We have in Scripture not only the mission of Christ to “go and make disciples” from Matthew 28, but we also have specific instruction about how we go about fulfilling that mission.  What should mark our attitude and character as we live with intentionality and purpose for Jesus?  Romans 12:11 is clear when it says: “Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the LORD.”  As you serve Christ and fulfill His purpose for your life, it should be full of zeal and passion for Christ and His Kingdom.   

Yet, our people largely have no discernable zeal for evangelism or burden for discipleship.  In my efforts earlier this year to stir their hearts and passions, the response was largely, “I am passionate…about maintaining the status quo.”  What I felt was an attitude of, “I appreciate your heart for that, but not me.  Maybe someone else, but don’t you ask me to get involved.”  I have desperately prayed that I was wrong about this, because it is earth-shattering to me to think that I would be correct about God’s people not caring for His mission, but I cannot see it any other way. 

I was reflecting on something the other day that horrified me: I have been in ministry for thirteen years and in three different churches.  In that time, I have seen ZERO converts to Christ who were not children.  I must give an account for that to the Lord, and that thought mortifies me.  When is the last time this church celebrated a convert to Christ because of God’s people reaching out to them?  You must give an account for that to the Lord, and that thought should mortify you.  Who has come to our church, for example, since my arrival in 2013?  The Morrison’s (from the Presbyterian church), the Hopkins’ and Mercer’s (from First Baptist and have already left), the Harrell’s (from Barefoot Church and have already left), the Moore’s (moved from a Baptist church in Asheville), Pete Madison (from an Alliance church in Ohio), and the Sierer’s (moved from Pennsylvania and may have already left) are all living examples of this systemic problem.  We have experienced no growth from conversion, and it sickens and depresses me to think of the amount of effort put into “church” that produces no fruit.  

Does this not burden your Spirit?  If it does not, then you don’t know the Christ you claim to worship.  If it does, then what are we to do about it?  The “status quo” is not reaching people for Jesus, and yet our people are almost completely indifferent.  Worse still, when prompted and stirred, attitudes of resistance and obstinance are their general responses.  Is it because they would have to personally own decades of failure, and that cost is too much to bear?  Is it because it is easier to blame “society” and those “young people” rather than ourselves?  Perhaps, some might suggest, it is due not to a lack of passion and zeal, but rather not knowing how to address this problem.  If this were true, then why the steadfast resistance to a new or different methodology that cannot possibly be worse?  Even if a new or different way to conduct ministry produces no evangelistic fruit and no one comes to know Jesus, the results will be no different from what we are doing now!  I don’t know why this resistance persists, but I have been almost entirely unsuccessful in stirring these passions. 

This was the heart that birthed our recent ministry evaluation forms, and the response was and continues to be near non-existent.  Why would a Christ-loving people not desire to evaluate their efforts in light of the mission and heart of Christ?  I can only conclude that it is because they do not care for it.  Their zeal, if it were ever present, is extinguished.  In Scripture, the burden of Christ and His followers is consistently to see people come to know, love, and follow Jesus. 

We recently read these words of Paul from Romans 9:1-5: “I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart.  For I could wish that I myself were cursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my people, those of my own race, the people of Israel.  Theirs is the adoption to sonship; theirs the divine glory, the covenants, the receiving of the law, the temple worship and the promises.  Theirs are the patriarchs, and from them is traced the human ancestry of the Messiah, who is God over all, forever praised!”  Paul’s zeal for people is such that he says, “If it were possible, I would go to hell for you so that you might know Jesus.”  What an amazing and humbling attitude, and yet we cannot even fill out a two-page form about a ministry for which we are supposedly “passionate”. 

 This is simply the heart of your pastor.  I am wrestling with the “state of the union” and I am tired and empty.  I have given these concerns to Christ, and I now leave them with you.  I would like for us to meet and pray together over them. 

in Christ, 

- Justin 
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