Remembering September 11: 10 years later
By: Justin Zachery DuBose
September 10, 2011 at 10:26pm
As tomorrow is the tenth anniversary of September 11, I thought I would write down my own personal reflections of it as I remember it on that day.
I was in 10th grade and I remember when I heard the news I was in Mrs. Edger's Biology class. I remember Kathryn Fuller, a classmate of mine, telling the class all about what had happened. For a while I was really confused as to what happened exactly. Were we bombed? Was it an accident? I was just confused.
I then remember being in choir, in Mrs. A's class, and talking about it a little more. It was then that I began to understand a little more about what exactly was going on...we were under attack! I obviously didn't comprehend fully the extent of what happened, as far as economic, socio-political, etc. I just knew that for the first time I realized that people out there really didn't like America. They didn't like us so much that they were willing to fly planes into some buildings in New York. I remember wondering if we were going to war. I remember wondering, if we did go to war, whether or not I would be drafted when I graduated high school. I remember thinking that this would be my "Pearl Harbor" - that generations of kids in the future would be asking me about that day, including my own kids. I remember wishing that I were just a few years older so that I could join the Army and make those guys pay.
To be honest, part of me was a little excited about going to war. Without the Revolution, a whole generation of youngsters wouldn't have saved our country. Without the Civil War, a whole generation of guys wouldn't have known what they were capable of accomplishing - what they were made of. The same can be said of WWI generation and the "greatest generation", the WWII guys.
As someone who studies history, and was especially intrigued by military history, I always was intrigued by the idea of going to war. It gave meaning to your life. It seemed like if you didn't do anything else meaningful for the rest of your life, you gave your life immense value by defending your country when it was in need. These were some of the feelings I remember having, though I didn't really express them to anyone.
Now, fast forward ten years. I still think about all of these things, though now my mind has changed and matured. Now, instead of being a young kid wanting to go get the bad guys, I have a wife and two kids, so that settles me down a bit! Looking back, I see that the Lord was taking care of me - with me not being a few years older to rush off and join the Army. I really believe I would have if I had graduated high school. Now, the Lord has me in the Army as a Chaplain (in training!). I don't know how everything would have worked out for me if I had been able to enlist in 2001. I suppose I would have been infantry, armor, field artillery, or something of that sort. I don't know if I would have been a Chaplain if I had taken that route. I don't think I would have married Alanna and had my wonderful daughters.
From a political and national standpoint, it is rewarding to see who we (the US) have taken care of since that date. No more Saddam Hussein, no more Osama Bin Laden, no more of dozens of other really bad guys who hate everyone different than them. I'm glad to be able to say that we have accomplished this, from a military standpoint.
I guess when I look back on this important date in American History, I can see the Lord taking care of me. He preserved me for what He had specifically called me to do, that being an Army Chaplain, and yet allowed me to fulfill what I felt obligated to do, that being to serve my country. He gave me Alanna and the girls, which I wouldn't have had. It is certainly sad to think of the lives that were lost and the damage that was done, but on this day I am reminded that the God that I serve is SOVEREIGN. Above all else, He is sovereign. When I look at the future, at the next ten years, in this light, I am comforted and at peace. Should I deploy in the future, which I hope I do, the Lord will certainly be with me and be watching over me. When I think of this crazy economy and how volatile and unstable it is, I know that God is in control. Tomorrow I will be thinking of these two passages of Scripture:
1 God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
3 Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling. Selah
4 There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
5 God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
6 The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
He uttered His voice, the earth melted.
7 The LORD of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah
1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”
3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler [fn1]
And from the perilous pestilence.
4 He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
6 Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
8 Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.
9 Because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
10 No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11 For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
12 In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
13 You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.
14 “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
15 He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”
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